Background check
Been together with my man for 2 years, to be exact, 1 year 11 months + 💓 We are a very, entirely, clingy couple. How clingy? We've been working together, in the same outlet, same timing, for over a year or more. To add on, before NS, we had been meeting every single day, at most 6 days per week and at least 3 days per week. For this whole period of being with him, we NEVER failed to update about our whereabouts and at night, we NEVER failed to sum up how our day was. Sure, every relationship has its ups and downs. Especially when we are dating a man who is not a well-established man YET. So, we, girls, gotta be understanding right? and PATIENT. Every crisis that we had, somehow or rather, we get to overcome it at the end of the day 😆
Once NS begins
My man has always wanted to get into civil defence as a regular but luck's not on his side. Letter came in and tada, A R M Y. He never stopped complaining to me about it. Even before he got into Tekong, he's already hating it.
So, his first day, it sucked. A LOT. Homesick all the way. He had no friends. (obviously. First day. What do we all expect) The food sucks according to him. He had to take a ferry to an island foreign to him. Ignorant people would probably go "Still Singapore what. Dramatic for what" I got that a lot and I held my fist to myself for a quite number of times. So, whatever ignorant people. Dont wish to explain to mindless people. Sila meninggal :) So back to my story..
Day 1 and Day 2, he was really homesick. He called me up. He was so upset. Through the phone, I could sense how unhappy he was. How he felt like crying. And I totally understand how it feels like for him. He missed home. His mother. Me...
So, day 1 and day 2 already taught me about #1 Be mentally strong for your man AND yourself
Day 1, I was totally alright. All thanks to my hectic schedule. Office job from 1 to 6 and continued teaching from 7.30 to 9pm. Got home and all ready to sleep. So, yup, it was okay for me.
Day 2, damn. Emotions kicked in. Woke up and checked my cell for a while and I almost forgot he's in the army and realised my routine's changing. No morning texts. No I love you calls every hour. (Thats how clingy we used to be) Day 2, I cried. Yes, I pathetically cried. In the bathroom. It got worst when I went for my 3rd job which is the outlet both of us used to work together. Opened the locker and WELCOME, WATERFALL. I cried real bad that I had to call up a friend. The photos in the locker, the happy memories together, the way he always helped me at work. Yup, all the memories gushed in my mind like there wasn't any friction yo. But, I was happy at the end of the day though once he managed to give me a call at night.
Day 3, which is today. I am doing fine now. Woke up with positive vibes. Vacuum the whole entire house, completed kitchen chores, did a 15 mins workout (because 1, I want to look fresh and beautiful once he's out and 2, I want to do something to distract myself from thinking of him all the time) Watched a movie to ease my mind and enjoy my own free time! And now, blogging to get all my heart contents out, just to share and feel good about life.
So, day 3 taught me about #2 Keep yourself busy, healthily and positively
To be honest, I am proud to be an NSF girlfriend. I am proud of my soldier. I know, I will see the differences in him after he steps out of Tekong. And, he will also see the changes in me once he's out. NS not only changes your man into a better man but it changes us, girls from a whiny, clingy, not understanding person to a more independent, understanding girlfriend.
I feel so thankful to all my friends who have been supportive for my man and myself. Especially Zul, Feroz and Marina for all their experience sharing. I am definitely prepared for this 2 weeks. NS pulls us apart physically but mentally wise, nah-uh. I'm still loving my man and I'll be here with my man till the end. Insya Allah..
P/s. What comes easy won't last and what lasts won't come easy.
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