1st book out day

Hi, guys! Yesterday was bae's first book out day after 2 weeks confinement in BMT. I finally had a strong reason to doll myself up. Bb was really looking good, on the bike, despite the fact that he's botak now. Before he arrived at my place, I was sooooo nervous, my heart was pumping so hard and I couldn't stop smiling. It was like our first date all over again.... 😍

To be honest, the 2 weeks were okay. Only the first few days were hard and the last few days were hard. First few days, not used to it and last few days, it felt sooooo long for bae to book out. HAHAHA! I just feel like these 2 weeks was like a test for us. To see whether if we would still be there for each other after the 2 weeks. I'm just so in love with bae that talking to anyone besides him, wouldn't make me feel better at all. I guess, at the end of the day, it is all about how strong your love is for someone. And knowing that being loyal is not a duty or an obligation but its a choice. Well, today, is another day of spending some time with bae. Even if it is only a few hours shopping for his army stuffs and we will be back home for our first breaking fast with our families at home 💓

I love you and I still love you, Kamarul Arriffin 💋

4 more days

Hi, guys! 4 more days to go to bb's first book out! Yes, I am sooo eggcited. Alhamdulillah, 11 days without bb is not that bad actually. Can't deny though that the first 3 days was quite bad. It took us 3 days to be fine. I guess, thats the average number of days for us to get used to a new routine?

2 weeks confinement is ending soon and I guess, these 2 weeks should be one of the toughest stage for both baby and myself. But, it isn't that hard...... Frankly speaking, I don't even feel that lonely or wanting to cheat on him.. No, I have no such feelings. AT ALL. I am fine most of the days. Its not that I don't miss my bae. I miss him every second. But, I don't get angry that he has to go thru NS, he has to sleep at 10pm... I don't. So.... I created my own theory to why I feel this way.

First. Maybe, it's because I AM BUSY most of the time. Juggling 3 jobs. Monday Tuesday Sakura AND teaching. Wednesday Thursday Friday Office AND teaching. Saturday and Sunday Sakura AND family. So, I am actually completely occupied. Work all day and by then, it's already 10pm and bae would probably call me at that timing, usually. I don't have time to even socialise with anyone that much..

Secondly... I AM CRAZY FOR MY BOYFRIEND. He's perfect the way he is. And, there is nothing that I wish I could have in him. So, perhaps, thats the reason why I am loyal even when he's in Tekong for the entire 2 weeks. (Insya Allah he's meant for me)

I love being at home, watch my movies, read books, spend time with my family, with bae, with my girlfriends. Its not that I am an anti-social person. (or is it I am?) HAHAHA! Some people loves the crowd, the talks. But, I guess, I prefer being with a small crowd that I am able to count on anytime.... Is it I'm getting older at a faster rate already?

Missing you, bae. Come home soon, love.....

NSF girlfriend heart's content

Hi guys! Since I have more free time, why not I start blogging about how my life is now, being a girlfriend to an NSF. Might be helpful tho to some of you couples experiencing the same shit as me. 

Background check

Been together with my man for 2 years, to be exact, 1 year 11 months + 💓 We are a very, entirely, clingy couple. How clingy? We've been working together, in the same outlet, same timing, for over a year or more. To add on, before NS, we had been meeting every single day, at most 6 days per week and at least 3 days per week. For this whole period of being with him, we NEVER failed to update about our whereabouts and at night, we NEVER failed to sum up how our day was. Sure, every relationship has its ups and downs. Especially when we are dating a man who is not a well-established man YET. So, we, girls, gotta be understanding right? and PATIENT. Every crisis that we had, somehow or rather, we get to overcome it at the end of the day 😆 

Once NS begins

My man has always wanted to get into civil defence as a regular but luck's not on his side. Letter came in and tada, A R M Y. He never stopped complaining to me about it. Even before he got into Tekong, he's already hating it. 

So, his first day, it sucked. A LOT. Homesick all the way. He had no friends. (obviously. First day. What do we all expect) The food sucks according to him. He had to take a ferry to an island foreign to him. Ignorant people would probably go "Still Singapore what. Dramatic for what" I got that a lot and I held my fist to myself for a quite number of times. So, whatever ignorant people. Dont wish to explain to mindless people. Sila meninggal :) So back to my story.. 

Day 1 and Day 2, he was really homesick. He called me up. He was so upset. Through the phone, I could sense how unhappy he was. How he felt like crying. And I totally understand how it feels like for him. He missed home. His mother. Me... 

So, day 1 and day 2 already taught me about #1 Be mentally strong for your man AND yourself

Day 1, I was totally alright. All thanks to my hectic schedule. Office job from 1 to 6 and continued teaching from 7.30 to 9pm. Got home and all ready to sleep. So, yup, it was okay for me. 

Day 2, damn. Emotions kicked in. Woke up and checked my cell for a while and I almost forgot he's in the army and realised my routine's changing. No morning texts. No I love you calls every hour. (Thats how clingy we used to be) Day 2, I cried. Yes, I pathetically cried. In the bathroom. It got worst when I went for my 3rd job which is the outlet both of us used to work together. Opened the locker and WELCOME, WATERFALL. I cried real bad that I had to call up a friend. The photos in the locker, the happy memories together, the way he always helped me at work. Yup, all the memories gushed in my mind like there wasn't any friction yo. But, I was happy at the end of the day though once he managed to give me a call at night. 

Day 3, which is today. I am doing fine now. Woke up with positive vibes. Vacuum the whole entire house, completed kitchen chores, did a 15 mins workout (because 1, I want to look fresh and beautiful once he's out and 2, I want to do something to distract myself from thinking of him all the time) Watched a movie to ease my mind and enjoy my own free time! And now, blogging to get all my heart contents out, just to share and feel good about life. 

So, day 3 taught me about #2 Keep yourself busy, healthily and positively 

To be honest, I am proud to be an NSF girlfriend. I am proud of my soldier. I know, I will see the differences in him after he steps out of Tekong. And, he will also see the changes in me once he's out. NS not only changes your man into a better man but it changes us, girls from a whiny, clingy, not understanding person to a more independent, understanding girlfriend. 

I feel so thankful to all my friends who have been supportive for my man and myself. Especially Zul, Feroz and Marina for all their experience sharing. I am definitely prepared for this 2 weeks. NS pulls us apart physically but mentally wise, nah-uh. I'm still loving my man and I'll be here with my man till the end. Insya Allah.. 

P/s. What comes easy won't last and what lasts won't come easy.