38 Degrees Celsius

Been days of being sick, I can't hear much, I can't really taste anything. But, I am thankful that I am sick. Maybe, cause when Im not, Id probably be working my ass off and would not give my body a chance to sit, rest, watch tv or even take a nap. 

3 jobs and schooling keeps me busy all week. The thing is, it is already a routine for me and I dont feel exhausted like how I thought I would be. Tutoring and seeing my student excel in her studies day by day makes me happy, being an accounts assistant, dealing with cheques, accounting system, makes me happy and working at sakura on some days with bae and amazing friends who never failed to make me laugh, makes me happy. So, why should I even feel miserable having 3 jobs that I absolutely love? But then, my body has failed me. hahaha! The truth is, I just need an ample rest before I gear myself up even more. 

Upcoming quizzes and mid-sem tests, sort of putting a pressure on me now, and at this rate, if I dont force myself to revise, Id probably have to repeat another sem, paying another huge sum of money. So, happy revising to me. 

And, happy Sunday to everyone!

Sweet Revenge

Another post in a week. Just had to express my contentment tonight. Met a whole lot of bad people back then (who could be nice now? idk) I am going to be partially honest tonight. I messed things up quite a lot in the past and things did get quite ugly between me and some people. I tend to get all emotionally unstable when things didn't go my way. Thats one. And, I loved feeling in love? I don't quite know how to explain it but in simple terms, I was a hopeless romantic. But, at some point of our lives, we would meet a bunch of ungrateful and full of bad agendas BOYS (if you know what I mean) I met some and it wasn't a pleasant experience at all! Tbh, it seemed like as if they didn't have a heart? At that point of time, all i said in my heart was; its okay, forgive them and let it go

Of about 2 years knowing bae, and I have never felt so secured and loved by someone. People may misjudge him for looking like a really bad guy(hahah sorry bb, but its the truth) But, he has never played with my heart or any girls' hearts. (Since i am the second girl hes with) Honest, loyal, sincere, , generous and HE DOES NOT HAVE ANY AGENDAS. BAD agendas. I had to meet several douchebags to get to you. I was emotionally unstable and was trying to figure my way out in life. But ever since I met you, you changed me into a better person, who lowers down her ego and not demanding way too much from anyone. You taught me so much and I wish I could type everything down in just 1 night but maybe some other nights, I would be typing more of it. 

I love you, sayang.. 

Yumi Blue

Morning, beautiful people! Been a while since I blogged. A lot of commitments the past few weeks. And finally, able to type out something here. Nothing comes easy in life but alhamdulillah, the challenges that He presented me with, simply taught me how to be strong for myself, how not to be naive and how to always have faith despite all the downfalls. 

These past few weeks, the multiple dance practice got me closer with my barbie girls, lemon, berry and honey. They are the kind of friends that I can always count on for anything. All of em' have separate opinions but they never lied to me just to please me. They are the best that I could ask for. 

A year and nine months with bae, it wasn't ALWAYS pleasant. But, somehow, we always try to work it out at the end of the day. We are completely different people, just like my barbie girls, we all have different personalities. But, thats what makes all of us close, right? The good thing about him is, somehow, once he gets to reflect on life, he would figure out his own mistakes and would eventually come up to me and explain every single shit that I had to put up with. hahaha! A million reasons to leave but only takes 1 reason for the both of us to stay. Love. We will always work things out as long as we are both meant for each other. If one day, he's not meant for me, then, we would have to walkaway. But, as long as we can see a future together, I would never leave him for another, no matter how hard it gets, (since life has never been easy) I would still stay, fighting for the both of us. 

We have been in different phases eventho its only a year and nine months. Only those who are close with us, are able to see our hardships back then. They know, He knows and we know. Alhamdulillah for everything... 

Ups & downs

Things won't always be all nice and sugary. But, I will always stay hopeful for better days to come. I couldn't deny that there were times I questioned His way of arranging my life, my struggles, my happiness, everything. But, I shouldn't have. No one ever told me that life is gonna be all flowery all the time. But, there is always a reason why He gave me hardships in the middle of all the good things I have. Probably to remind me to always remember him and stay down to earth no matter how happy or successful I am. Whatever the hardships that I'm going through now is definitely something way more worth it than the ones I had back then. (tbh, looking back, dont think it fits to be called a "hardship") 

May Allah ease all our troubles......